Chemical burn

‘She just dind’t feel it anymore.’

Guess I got put in my place heh? Karma and all that.

I don’t know how to feel atm, will post later.

I can’t believe I’m crying right now.

Í’m so angry. All. The. Time.

I don’t feel good. I feel like I’m slipping away into this fucking black hole void thing that’s hovering over my head like approaching death. And everyone’s riding my ass on everything.

Fucking kids in class giving me condesending looks because I have given up on my grade list. FUCK YOU. I DON’T GIVE A SHIT WHAT YOU THINK. Just go away ‘friend’ because obviously you’re not as fucking close as you say you are.

People are just closing me out of everything. Shit being planned behind my back on purpose. By my best friends. My best friends. If you don’t want to invite me that’s fucking fine. Fuck off then. But don’t come around my ass and tell me how much you’ve missed me this last week because fuck you. 

I go through fucking fires to get everyone what they want and they’re like ‘heyyyyy thankssssss kaayyyyy okayyyy’ but where are they when I need something?  I have been feeling like shit the entirety of the past week. ONE person. ONE. Only ONE, one of my oldest friends, has noticed and actually asked me about it. ONE. And you know what? I see her the least out of all my friends. I have been kinda shoving her aside for the other friends and she STILL cares more than my entire friend circle does.

I think this is the closest I have ever been to desiring nothing but complete and utter silence, and the only thing I can think off to acquire that is death.

I swear to god I will punch a bear through the face, that’s how aggressive I am right now.